Life and Literature

Thinking to myself how the words always never come out The first time was arrogant just won't trade it hoped this would have been different and easy Figuring out all the emptiness being filled with nothing The closeness always being dreamed off Selfness is a trait cherished Abuse of words lacked Minutes feeling, being days Reality being as far as the sky Scream Trust being the prove of me A smile pricelessly adored When the sting of tears dry before it falls This feeling that isn't pain, not rejection or loneliness The heart beats with rhythm lost When the tunes of music start to fade laying on the slab staring at the stars  thought only you can provide Love once felt

realized, not that just did? But thought it would change overtime With affection and love Erasing the insecurities just came off as desperate Not intentions had Wanted the flowing smiles of easiness Wanted the courage to break walls Instead felt like red carpet of glass Carefully maneuvering my way through rubbers beneath my feet not solid enough It not the blood am afraid of losing the faith, once carried Slipping through Faith that you had my back The light the shone above the house like hope Now seen deep down the rivers of tears What more is there to ask You Said, Committed, Promised That ALWAYS Was it me? Too scared to find my way? Or just not brave enough to ask for help When you left me all alone Where was I to go When the trust in you started to fade There was no words  wished Job wavered Could have Boldly said it's on you You test us knowing the outcome